Facing my dilemma

So here we are, at this very same spot. The look in your eyes kills me, are we at this again? You tempt me into your ways and I fall victim of your spell? Or have you come to tell me you’ve changed. Actions speak louder than words, so you have a lot to prove. Please tell me were not going to be playing any more of these mind games, because I can’t take anymore of this mess you wrapped me into. I’m tearing myself apart at the seams trying to figure this all out. You back in my life was something I hadn’t planned for, now I’m facing my dilemma; not sure if I can trust you again, but the thought of you not with me makes my heart ache. So have you come back here to prove yourself to me? Or are you here to watch me crumble to the ground? I’d be lying if I told you that I haven’t missed you at all, I’d be lying if I said I haven’t thought about you lately. I miss the times we’ve had together. To be honest I still think of those fond memories we’ve shared, brings me back to happier days. So is this why your back, to start over? Tell me why your here, I’m dying to know. I’ve dreamt of this moment for so long now, and here you are standing in front of me; your here now please don’t go.

Keeping secrets

"I’ve been laying here many nights trying to figure this out, trying to figure you out.
This feeling I have deep inside is burning right thru, I can’t hide it, no I can’t deny it.
Keeping this secret is wearing on me, I was never good at admitting I was wrong.
This isn’t easy for me, I can’t seem to come clean. But deep within I know it’s something I must do if I want to be with you.
You’re all I think about day and night; always have. I bring myself back to the times we shared, oh how I miss those days. and I know you feel the same, I can see it in your eyes when you look at me.
It’s clear to me what I should do, but it’s not that easy. I’m so torn, why must this be so hard?
I’m just laying here, trying to figure this out, trying to figure us out.”